i am paralyzed

I was there

in the middle of it all;

the ashes beneath the fire.

I was the kindling

but not the beautiful flame

so no one noticed me

or acknowledged the life that I created.

you

supported by me

or more like

supported by my crooked and dry wooden frame

that provide an alter beneath you

or maybe like

supported by my spine

composed of so many fragile aching bones

that are already broken-

you use them as your pedestal.

you've broke me

you've broke the one thing that held me together

so teach me how this once fluid and nostalgic,

yet now tragically incapacitated

body,

should function,

in the way that it should

in the way that its supposed to?

hurry

take the rest

take what you need

take all of me

the last of me

because i am too broken to stay here

to create another mountain beneath you.

but was i ever supposed to?

i do not know.

ilc