why am i so sad
why am i so afraid
why am i so sick
why am i so weak
why am i shaking
why am i hopeless
why am i me
why am i this
why do i do this
why do i know how long it takes to drown
why do i know how to sound the alarm
why do i know how much it takes
why do i know how to tie a noose
why can’t i be like everyone else
why can’t i be like every other brain
why can’t i just stop
why can’t i just let this go
why can’t i just not
why can’t i just go
why can’t i just leave
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