20 questions

why am i so sad

why am i so afraid

why am i so sick

why am i so weak

why am i shaking

why am i hopeless

why am i me

why am i this

why do i do this

why do i know how long it takes to drown

why do i know how to sound the alarm

why do i know how much it takes

why do i know how to tie a noose

why can’t i be like everyone else

why can’t i be like every other brain

why can’t i just stop

why can’t i just let this go

why can’t i just not

why can’t i just go

why can’t i just leave

ilc